Savoring the Time

7 Feb

As the days til Lucy’s birth gets closer and closer I am trying to focus on the now. I know in a few weeks life is going to be completely different. These are our last days as a family of 3. Up until now we have had all our time and attention focused on Lila and I just get anxious thinking of how things will change. We are going to have to find a happy balance and a way to distribute our time between 2 children. I mean, I know people do this everyday and with more kids than just 2. I guess I am a little worried about the transition for Lila and how she is going to handle it. We talk about Lucy pretty much everyday and have for months. She seems genuinely excited but I know there is bound to be some jealousy. I want to make sure she is involved and feels like she is part of the process and knows that we are bringing even more love into the family.

In the meantime I am trying to get in as many snuggles as possible and spend as much one on one time with Lila as possible. My favorite part of the day is after she has had her bath and is in her pajamas. She loves to snuggle up on my lap to read her books or watch a cartoon. If we are sitting down she is right by my side and I love holding her close and breathing in her sweet smell. She came and got in our bed the other night. I normally make her go back to her bed unless she is sick or upset but I let her stay. She slept with us all night and in the morning she just laid in bed and let me love on her. These are the moments I never want to forget.

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I am also trying not to rush these last days of pregnancy. As miserable and uncomfortable as things can be I am trying to enjoy and remember this feeling. I know with Lila I was so ready to be done and each day I woke up I was willing her to come out. Then my water broke and it was all over. Feeling the kicks, punches and flips is pretty amazing. It’s so easy to forget that feeling once the pregnancy is done. I look forward to everything that lies ahead for us but in this moment I am trying to be present.

Waiting, Anticipating and Procrastinating

23 Jan

We have about 5 weeks until Lucy is due to make her arrival. Somehow I think I have blacked out during this pregnancy because it has gone by so quickly. I have always heard that after your first pregnancy the time just flies. You no longer have the time to sit around and daydream about what things will be like when the new baby arrives. You are busy keeping up with baby number 1 and in our case it is no different.

Lila seems to still like the idea of a baby sister. We talk about her daily and discuss all of the fun, big sister duties she will have. She has about 6 baby dolls and they are all named Lucy. She draws her pictures at school and even insists that baby Lucy is in her tummy. It’s really cute. I am worried that there might be a bit of jealousy once she arrives but I think that is probably very normal. She has started referring to herself as the baby a lot and is hesitant to let go of some”baby things.”

I am nervous and excited all in the same breath. As we go throughout our day I always try to envision what it will be like when we add a newborn to the mix. It is really impossible to try and comprehend but for some reason I keep trying. Josh painted the nursery over Christmas break and I have slowly but surely made some headway. I know Lucy will have no idea nor care if her room is complete but right now it is the one thing I feel I have control over. So it makes me feel better to be working on that space and getting things organized for the days of un-organization that are sure to follow. I have a list of things that need to be crossed off but I keep finding myself saying we have plenty of time…umm not really. 5 weeks will be here in the blink of an eye and if she is like Lila it may only be 4 weeks.

Here is a picture from last week of Lucy and I at 34 weeks. She is a mover and a shaker. BTW, leggings are my new uniform. They are the best.

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Lila Chatter

6 Nov

“My mommy, my daddy, my cookie, my g-daddy…hear me pups” Lila has started to claim everything in her life and let the pups know they all belong to her.

My favorite thing she says right now, usually once a day as we are riding in the car, “I happy Mommy.” What more can you ask for?

On Halloween she would announce to anyone who passed, “I a bee.” Also, after each house we went to she insisted on “more trick-or-treat!”

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“Baby in my belly.” She claims her sister is in her belly:)

She will rub my belly occasionally and say, “hi my sistah.”

I was explaining to Lila that when her sister gets here we are gonna have to be gentle with her because she will be little. She said, “I little?” Yes baby you are little too. Her response. “Mommy big.” Thanks babe:)

Check out our little dancer.

Life Lately

22 Oct

We had a busy and fun weekend.

We fit in a trip to the zoo, which may be the last of the season. It was quite chilly and most of the animals were napping or tucked away in a nice, warm spot. Lila insisted that she wanted to get in the water at the splash pad. Luckily, they were already closed down and we didn’t have to break her hear too badly.

pumkinpatch6Lila and daddy were checking out the elephants. Lila wanted to know why they weren’t pooping?

zoo1All the turtles were put up for the next few months so we had to settle for a picture on the statue turtle.

It was a jam-packed day because we not only went to the zoo but we also went to the Oakes Farm Pumpkin Patch.

pumkinpatch5They had all kinds of fun activities. Slides, a petting zoo, bounce houses, a sand-pit and a ton of other stuff. Lila would have gone down this slide for hours if I had let her. I mean, look at that face. Pure happiness.

pumkinpatch4We saved the pumpkin picking for last so we wouldn’t have to drag  them everywhere. Lila thought pumpkin picking was a sport and tried to lift every single pumpkin over her head. She is actually pretty strong.

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And these two were too cute together.

pumkinpatch2By the end of the day we were both zonked. It was worth all the fatigue to hear Lila re-cap her day and see the big smile stretch across her face.

In other news, Josh and I were able to have a little getaway for our 5 year anniversary last weekend. Our friends let us stay at their cabin for the weekend and we watched movies, read, napped, lazed around….it was fabulous.

mountains2It’s good to have one those weekends away together to re-charge and have some down-time. Josh claims he took his first nap in 7 years.

mountains1Also, I have been incredibly bad about taking pictures documenting this pregnancy so far but I plan on changing that.

I am currently 21 weeks with Miss. Lucy and feeling pretty good. My pants are getting quite snug and I am about to convert to stretchy pants 24-7:)

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Lila Chatter

2 Oct

People tell me all the time I need to write down all of the cute things Lila says because I will soon forget whether I think so or not. I thought I would start highlighting her little gems here so I can have them in a safe place.

Recently, anytime she wants me to pick her up and carry her, “I hold you mommy.” 

Anytime there is any kind of boo boo, “It whooots mommy, it whoooots.”

Apparently I tell our dogs to quit barking quite a bit, everyday when we get home “hush puppies.”

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Transitions

26 Sep

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We finally made the move to the toddler bed! Can you tell that Lila was super excited about her big girl bed? I think she was really proud of herself and she loves that she can go hurl herself into bed. I won’t lie, the first night was torture. I didn’t really expect things to go flawlessly but I didn’t expect them to go as roughly as they did. She has always done really great at bedtime and when 8pm rolls around she is ready to lay down. Sometimes she will even tell us she is ready for “night, night.” After a few snuggles, hugs and kisses she lays down with her books and is pretty satisfied so I didn’t think too much would be different once the toddler bed came into play.

We rearranged her room slightly and her bed is on a different wall than where her crib was. When bedtime rolled around she acted like everything was normal but the minute I tried to walk out of the room there was a major meltdown. She was crying so hard she could barely catch her breath. It made me really sad because it seemed like she was genuinely scared, not just that she didn’t want me to leave. We reassured her she was a big girl and that we were just in the other room. By the time I would sit down in the living room she would already be up and opening the door. This little routine went on from about 8-11pm. Finally by 11 we were going to bed ourselves and she had finally given up. I guess after repeatedly taking her back to her room she was too tired to fight us. I thought, “finally!” Not so fast there, thinking we were going to get by that easy. Around 3:30 I woke up to Lila standing by my bed. I took her back to her room and tucked her in and told her she had to sleep in her big girl bed. She would comply and say she understood but by the time I would get back in bed I could hear the pitter patter of her little feet coming down the hall. This went on for 2 hours. I was thrilled. At the 2 hour mark I gave in and told her she could climb in our bed but by this point she was wide awake and wasn’t even trying to sleep. After about 10 minutes of her lying there kicking me I took her back to her room. I pleaded my case once more for her to stay in bed, I really thought I had her that time…..nope. At this point I woke Josh up…how he slept through all this I have no idea. I told him I was done and it was his turn to take a stab at it. Of course he only had to put her down once and I guess by that time she was too tired to continue on. I still didn’t fall asleep for quite sometime as I lay restless waiting for the sound of her feet. I might have gotten 45 more min. of sleep and I was prepared for the next day to be painful. However, for the small amount of sleep I got I functioned rather well and never felt like I was going to crash.

Since that first night Lila has done extremely well. We have gotten in a good routine at night and now that she is in her bed I can lay down with her and read books. That is one of my favorite times of day. She is clean, snuggly and calm and we sit side by side and wind down our day together. I was really nervous about transitioning from the crib because knowing she was restricted to that little space was somehow very comforting. And, in the middle of that first night I was convinced she would be in the crib til she was 5 and we would just have to invest in a 2nd crib for Lucy. Oh the places your mind goes in the middle of the night.

I am so thankful she has taken to her bed somewhat seamlessly and just hope that it sticks.

 

Baby Girl #2

17 Sep

I haven’t written here in quite sometime. I’m disappointed because I love going back and looking at the way this helps to document life. For some reason I got a bit burnt out on writing but with lots of new changes happening in our lives I want to have a place to “remember” it by.

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Back at the first of July we found out we were expecting baby #2! Very exciting and a bit overwhelming at the same time time. It wasn’t a big surprise and it was something we had definitely discussed but it is different when things go from hypothetical to real. I got really nervous and quite anxious about how I was going to handle 2 babies. I know people do it everyday and with a lot more kids but for me it was a lot. As the weeks passed I became more and more calm. I have actually now convinced myself I can do this and it’s gonna be great, positive reinforcement. All that kinda makes it sound like I wasn’t happy about the news but I truly was. All those moments of the first weeks and how hard it can be suddenly came rushing back to the front of brain and made me a bit timid. Just like anything it is going to be a change and we will have to adjust our lives just like we did when Lila arrived. Right now we have a routine and we all know what we are doing and things are for the most part flowing….on most days.

At our first dr’s appointment we found out they offered a new test. It was a DNA screening test that you could take as early as 10 weeks and find out the gender 100%. The test also screened your chromosomes to check for any signs of Down’s or Trisomy 21. It’s pretty amazing that you can find out that early these days. We didn’t get to do the test until I was 11 weeks because we were away on vacation but once we got back we had it on the schedule. They said the test usually took about 3 weeks for results so we still had to remain a bit patient. A week and half later I was sitting in the Detroit airport on the way to see my brother in Seattle when I got the call from the dr. The results were already in! However I was by myself, surrounded by strangers in the airport. For some reason I didn’t want to find out the gender at that moment by myself. However, I was anxious to know how everything was genetically. The nurse let me know that everything came back as low-risk and normal which provided me with a huge sigh of relief. I opted to call the office back for the gender results after I had spoken to Josh. I called and texted and got no reply from Josh (he was in meetings.) I was boarding the plane and had to turn my phone off and was disconnected for the next 4 hours. Once I landed in Seattle I was able to talk to Josh and we both agreed we wanted to go ahead and find out, but by that time the office was closed. Argh! We decided I would call the next morning and I would call him first thing with the news. By the time I was ready to go to sleep I was exhausted from a day of travel, sight-seeing and just all the excitement. I knew the faster I went to sleep the faster I would get the news. I dreamed about calling all night long. I had gotten 2 results it was a boy, 1 result it was a girl, and once I couldn’t find any phone that would dial out. I woke up at 6am and thought I couldn’t wait another minute. Since there is a 3 hour time difference I knew the dr’s office would be open. I nervously reached for my phone and dialed the number. Suddenly, the office voicemail picked up….I thought that can’t be right. I hung up and dialed again, this time I actually listened to the recording only to be reminded they were closed on Fridays. Big ole bummer. So I had to wait until Monday, luckily my brother was keeping me extra busy sight-seeing around the city and it kept my mind from wandering too much. Once Monday rolled around I pulled myself out of a deep sleep and phoned the dr. Once I got connected with the nurse she went over the genetics with me again and then asked if I was ready to know the gender…..”YES!” She calmly told me “It’s a girl” and then congratulated me. I was so excited. I had really felt like it was a girl all along and I could never explain why I felt that way. I was also really excited for Lila because ever since we told her she was gonna be a big sister she insisted on wanting a “seestah.” We would say, but Lila what if you have a little baby brother, “no, seestah!”

So baby Lucy will be joining our family around the beginning of March :) She and Lila are going to be almost exactly three years apart and I think Lila is going to be a great big sister.

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