As the days til Lucy’s birth gets closer and closer I am trying to focus on the now. I know in a few weeks life is going to be completely different. These are our last days as a family of 3. Up until now we have had all our time and attention focused on Lila and I just get anxious thinking of how things will change. We are going to have to find a happy balance and a way to distribute our time between 2 children. I mean, I know people do this everyday and with more kids than just 2. I guess I am a little worried about the transition for Lila and how she is going to handle it. We talk about Lucy pretty much everyday and have for months. She seems genuinely excited but I know there is bound to be some jealousy. I want to make sure she is involved and feels like she is part of the process and knows that we are bringing even more love into the family.
In the meantime I am trying to get in as many snuggles as possible and spend as much one on one time with Lila as possible. My favorite part of the day is after she has had her bath and is in her pajamas. She loves to snuggle up on my lap to read her books or watch a cartoon. If we are sitting down she is right by my side and I love holding her close and breathing in her sweet smell. She came and got in our bed the other night. I normally make her go back to her bed unless she is sick or upset but I let her stay. She slept with us all night and in the morning she just laid in bed and let me love on her. These are the moments I never want to forget.
I am also trying not to rush these last days of pregnancy. As miserable and uncomfortable as things can be I am trying to enjoy and remember this feeling. I know with Lila I was so ready to be done and each day I woke up I was willing her to come out. Then my water broke and it was all over. Feeling the kicks, punches and flips is pretty amazing. It’s so easy to forget that feeling once the pregnancy is done. I look forward to everything that lies ahead for us but in this moment I am trying to be present.